I Gotta Keep Losing You

Time has passed
Bruises not forgotten, healed
And yet seeing you again hurts my heart
I know it’s better we're apart
So I gotta keep losing you
But there you are and in my brain
Thoughts of love and pain
The feelings, the stain
Takes me right there again
You got me insane
So I gotta keep losing you
You can't guarantee
You won't disappoint
Like the first, fourth, sixth
Time who's counting
You are who you are
You who I hate and adore
I can't be your kitty bling no more
So I gotta keep losing you
You know I haven't been the same
Trying hard to forgot your name
But here you are again
Stroking me like your tongue ring
Stalking the kid within
Come out, come out and play
I already gave my love away
What more can I do or say
Please love me, no please go
I won't beg
You know too much already
And there's more to tell
I'm no good alone
But I'm no better with you
Let me lay my head down
Tell me what you want from me
Before you make me run and hide
You know I gotta keep losing you
I wish I didn't want to

Blue Freedom

I'm dressed in blue

Me too

I have no choice
It's a choice for you
You wear shorts
A clean, toothpaste smile
Mine
It's been broken for a while
Standing as a soldier
In an army of wars with myself
Scaling a cell wall hearing
Shotguns I once fired in my head
Making beats on the cage door
Lockdown it's been eight
Ten years more
All for a fuckin' score

Yeah I'm not in that box like you
No prison guard telling me what to do
But I'm trying to cope
Stay alive too
I'm not in total hell
But this frying pan of a world, well
I'm in hot oil and it's pricking me
So no, I don't want to be you
I've got my own blue
But be careful what you think is free
I'm not sure that's me