102

you been in love?
me, 100 times
no OneHundredandTwo
ways, times, to listen to it
When It Hurts So Bad
The Miseducation of Lauren Hill
why does it feel so good
broken CD case pressed against my skin, again
i'm a cutter
shhh...hhiitt...ahhh
yes, i mark myself
102 times already
don't
please don't tell,
say anything
when it hurts so bad
why does it feel so good

him

afraid to live
afraid to dream
he's afraid to die.

he's afraid to die
but he wasn't present
when he had the chance,
wasn't respectful of life
didn't learn, evolve
afraid to love.

now
he's afraid to die.

C1 the nineties

combing the crowd
bodies, whole bodies
multitude of characters and shades
my eyes burn, delightfully
taking it all in
over there up the stairs this way that
around the corner in the light
on the stage, everywhere
it excites me
i'm a part of something
bespeaking
looks and attitudes, ready
am i cute
will someone approach
will i catch one