I Didn't See This

I died a little today

I am at a shop

Around the corner

Having a cup of black

At least you could have said goodbye

Why do I have to ask you why

Where did I go that led you there

Saying you will never come back

That you really don't care

I chew the inside of my lip

I taste my blood

Like sickness in my mouth

I'm collapsing from the inside

Gnawing pain in my wrist

Body in a twist

I'm having those thoughts again

I think today will be the end

I can't settle on how to do it

A gun, pills

Jumping off the Roosevelt Bridge

To go means to never come back

I wouldn't care but

I want to see you again

And if I leap

You win

But I'm a better player

I know the rules

I wrote them

But the rookie rises, surpasses

And I slouch on a counter stool

Eating two sugar donuts

Looking for my pride

At the bottom of a coffee cup

And the courage to leave the shop

What happens now

I go home and wait

Contemplate

Maybe you will come

Get your things

I didn't see this